you cant blame me for being homesick.

for missing all your friends.

and missing that boy.

today was the first day of class

it was alright

tomorrow i have class at 2

i dont think i want to deal with this setting and classes all year.

fact, one of the negaitve aspects of having a friend for a room mate, is that if there's a function going on, and she's not ready, you have to wait for them..and then get left behind by the floor ra and girls.

kinda pissed.

i've been pretty good leaving him alone.

it's 6:30 am. i never went to sleep at akons.

everyone was passed out and i realized, im only here for one more day.

so i left..to get things done.

i cleaned out my car.

that was a job in itself

now i have my room..even though i have alot empited out and packed, i still feel like my room is full.  kinda like it this way.

the black and white dinner was sooo amazing. it went from being just like 9 if us, to about 30 of us. everyone looked so cute all dressed up. and then at akons, so much fun. its nights like those, i'll never forget.

i cried, when i said goodbye to char and katie.

i cried so hard, when i said goodbye to sv.

im going to cry so hard, when i say bye to amy. and the rest of my friends...

this was my choice though.

im just going to leave him be the next 4 days that im here

i feel like im bothering him.

if he really wants to talk to me or see me, he'll make an effor to do so.

until then...i'll just be here..hoping he'll come around

i guess i'll be waiting here awhile

i dont think he's interested anymore. there's a new chick. i think, i believe, i always get this way though. amy analyzed me last night. she knows me all too well.

we took an adventure at 5 in the morning. we didnt sleep at all until later on today. aha.

i got a letter from brett. if he could be back, things would be much better. i'd feel more comfortable moving on. but he's doing something he wants to do. and im proud of him.